you usually help me not cut and not hate myself and not want to die and now you’re the one who makes me want to hurt myself and hope I die this time
the person who actually makes me feel better and makes me not want to die won’t even talk to me so I don’t know what to do I don’t want to do anything stupid but I don’t know if I can help it
I really don’t want to do this I just want to die I want to cease to exist too many fucking horrible things happen to me and the good things that happen do not outweigh the bad at all it’s not even worth it to be alive if its just going to be hell all the time why can’t I just be happy? I don’t know I wish I was I try to be but I just can’t my life won’t let me it’s impossible. I wish I had the guts to end it but I can’t even do that. I
hope I just die somehow and soon god please.